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Flaws and Thanks

Sooo sleepy but wanting to talk to Rob so I am not going to bed just yet... would go to bed and let his call wake me but don't wanna wake stephy who actually has to get up tomorrow... downside to having a room mate I suppose but I wouldn't trade her for the world... she has been esspecially awesome lately with the Rob thing and the fact that I have been dealing with some insecurity and ignorant people latly...

Why most people point out my CP when I am walking and no one can tell... its not that I am ahamed... I just wanna know what it is like NOT to be judged, smiled at TOO sweetly and pitied... just one I want someone to meet me and see me... not a chair... and yet no one else seems to want that... its like they are so insecure that they must point out MY flaws in order to make themselves feel better.

I'll save you the trouble

I AM FUCKING CRIPPLED

I'm short

I'm not always pretty

I do hate some people

I have lied, cheated, stolen

I am a person

AND YES I AM FUCKING CRIPPLED

Just so we are clear.

These are just some of my flaws. Here for you in black and white. Print them out and pass them around. No one cares about the good things anyway, at least, YOU don't. Don't worry you're flaws are safe with me... I'll hide them for you. Sheild them, now you can remain perfect... a little angel for Mom and Dad, (isn't she nice she has a little crippled friend) I understand that you need someone to hide behind, why not me? FUCK YOU!

*Ahem...*

Sorry guys I needed to say that... now that I have been so negetive I have a few thank yous that need to be said...

Thank you Stephy for being you, for caring so much about others and not enough about yourself... I promise you are a great friend.

Cathy, you make me laugh and therefore, you rock my socks!

Robby, Thanks for not noticing, for seeing what is really there and not just what is outwardly visible. You, my dear, are wonderful.

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